As I begin my 56th rotation around the sun, I want to reflect on the past 55 years. Some folks may look at it with horror....I look at it with gratefulness. I have lost some folks along the journey. Some never made it to 40, let alone 55.
It is a miracle that I survived this long considering some questionable choices made in my teens and 20's. I am embracing this new season.
In numerology, 55 represents change, freedom, growth and transformation. Going into 54, I got a nose ring and over these last 12 months, I began to worry less and less about conforming to other's standards.
I am cool with:
- 16 year old me who tried to fit in
- 20 something year old me who just wanted to serve in the Navy
- 30 something year old me who was balancing motherhood and college
- 41 year old me who had to tackle losing my mother and my marriage while trying to navigate a job relocation
- 45 year old me who had to learn to shift from being "mom the guider/director/navigator " for my sons to being "mom the consultant only when asked"
Cheers to 55. I am unapologetically me. I'm silly and may burst into a gut busting belly laugh, or dance in the rain. I am eclectic and have my own style. Sliding into my twilight years, I now understand, it's ok to be different. I have more years behind me than I have in front of me, and when I depart this world I will leave with no regrets. 
MzNewy
MzNewy
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