Values

What do you value?  I heard this question posed in a movie and it made me think, what do I value?

I value honesty, love, feeling like someone wants me for me, family and most of all I value feeling significant in life.  I keep focusing on how I got to this point in life where I have surrounded myself with people who do not value me.  I have put people in my circle that I make a priority, yet they make me an option.  I am lost.  I have such superficial relationships.  Folks in my circle who don't know  care shyt about me.  Like seriously, they don't know nor do they care to know about my dreams, my aspirations, my goals; it's all about what I CAN DO FOR THEM.

So I logged off FB...and a couple of other changes I made is I stopped initiating contact with folks.  Yep I stopped being the one to start conversations, initiate phone calls and  send out the "what's up" text messages.  See, I reviewed my phone bill for the last month and I realized that most of the calls and messages were outgoing.  No one is checking for me.  Incoming are mostly return calls.

Self examination is a painful thing.  Painful...but necessary.  So tonight I have a date with me.  I am taking me out to a movie.  I am going to enjoy my  own company.  This incessant need to be connected to folks all the time has to be quenched.  I am going back to doing what makes me happy.  I am checking for me now.


MzNewy has to fall in love with me again.  I let my failed marriage and lack of being in a committed relationship define me.  It's weird, but I have lost my identity.  I have to find me and fall in love with me...it starts with getting to know me from the inside out.

MzNewy