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Mother of 2, Child of God in DMV "They always ask me if I make it am I going to forget about them, but the question is, if I don't make it will they forget about me?" My spin : RealTalk When u are up everyone wants to hang on, but look for the ones that let you lean on when you are down. Remember...don't just look for me when I am up, support me when I'm down. ♥ In prosperity, your friends know you, in adversity, you know your friends. I asked God for strength, I got adversity. I asked God for wisdom, I was made a fool of. I asked for patience, I had a difficult relationship. I looked back, He gave me what I asked for. Adversity showed me I was stronger than I thought; being a fool opened my eyes to discernment making me wise; the difficult relationship showed me that patience is earned not given. Blessings come in many forms, not all of them recognizable.

Wednesday, May 01, 2019

Wind Down Wednesday

Good evening, Bloggers.

It's been a dizzying few weeks.  Work demands and trying to get ready for vacation.  Plus it is now my birthday month.  Yay for May!!!!  So I am going to try to be in here at least once a week to recap the countdown to 49.   I am really excited.

So Mr. Perfect and I have hit a rough patch.  I think it's me.   If you don't keep me engaged, I can become detached.  I think I told you all about me being emotionally unavailable.  Don't remember?  Here is a refresher:   I think that when it comes down to it, I can't emotionally commit to anyone.  I have been burned so bad that I can have have fun with him, but I can't trust him ( no matter who the HIM is) enough to be vulnerable and emotionally available.  So he has done some things that remind me of the ex-husband.  so much so that I have begun to put some distance there.  Although I have talked to him, I haven't seen him in a couple of weeks.  The bad thing is that I am totally ok with that.  This week, the last time I talked to him was Monday evening.  I got some things off my chest and then I went to bed.   I will never make someone a priority if it feels like I am only an option.  So anywho....another one bites the dust.

Truthfully, I think I was looking for a reason to get ghost. I am on my way to the Bahamas in a few days.  Maybe I will feel different when I come back but I doubt it.

On the career front...I am looking for another job.  I deserve a promotion and let's just say, it looks like I may have to leave to get it.   I still love what I do but I have only about 12 more years before retirement so I am trying to get one more promotion then coast to retirement. I may have to go to another Agency to get it.

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