Good evening, Bloggers.
It's been a dizzying few weeks. Work demands and trying to get ready for vacation. Plus it is now my birthday month. Yay for May!!!! So I am going to try to be in here at least once a week to recap the countdown to 49. I am really excited.
So Mr. Perfect and I have hit a rough patch. I think it's me. If you don't keep me engaged, I can become detached. I think I told you all about me being emotionally unavailable. Don't remember? Here is a refresher: I think that when it comes down to it, I can't emotionally commit to anyone. I have been burned so bad that I can have have fun with him, but I can't trust him ( no matter who the HIM is) enough to be vulnerable and emotionally available. So he has done some things that remind me of the ex-husband. so much so that I have begun to put some distance there. Although I have talked to him, I haven't seen him in a couple of weeks. The bad thing is that I am totally ok with that. This week, the last time I talked to him was Monday evening. I got some things off my chest and then I went to bed. I will never make someone a priority if it feels like I am only an option. So anywho....another one bites the dust.
Truthfully, I think I was looking for a reason to get ghost. I am on my way to the Bahamas in a few days. Maybe I will feel different when I come back but I doubt it.
On the career front...I am looking for another job. I deserve a promotion and let's just say, it looks like I may have to leave to get it. I still love what I do but I have only about 12 more years before retirement so I am trying to get one more promotion then coast to retirement. I may have to go to another Agency to get it.
- Mother of 2, Child of God in DMV "They always ask me if I make it am I going to forget about them, but the question is, if I don't make it will they forget about me?" My spin : RealTalk When u are up everyone wants to hang on, but look for the ones that let you lean on when you are down. Remember...don't just look for me when I am up, support me when I'm down. ♥ In prosperity, your friends know you, in adversity, you know your friends. I asked God for strength, I got adversity. I asked God for wisdom, I was made a fool of. I asked for patience, I had a difficult relationship. I looked back, He gave me what I asked for. Adversity showed me I was stronger than I thought; being a fool opened my eyes to discernment making me wise; the difficult relationship showed me that patience is earned not given. Blessings come in many forms, not all of them recognizable.