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Mother of 2, Child of God in Atlanta "They always ask me if I make it am I going to forget about them, but the question is, if I don't make it will they forget about me?" My spin : RealTalk When u are up everyone wants to hang on, but look for the ones that let you lean on when you are down. Remember...don't just look for me when I am up, support me when I'm down. ♥ In prosperity, your friends know you, in adversity, you know your friends. I asked God for strength, I got adversity. I asked God for wisdom, I was made a fool of. I asked for patience, I had a difficult relationship. I looked back, He gave me what I asked for. Adversity showed me I was stronger than I thought; being a fool opened my eyes to discernment making me wise; the difficult relationship showed me that patience is earned not given. Blessings come in many forms, not all of them recognizable.

Monday, March 19, 2012

It's only a Test - Revisted

This life is full of tests and trials. One thing I have discovered is that it is easy to do the right thing when others are watching, but what do you do when you think no one can see you?

At one time, I was not a friendly person. Seriously. I really didn’t care for many people and once I put you in the “I don’t like him/her” box, well that is where you stayed. Period. The funny thing is I kept running into the same type of people – the type that I put into that box. Let me explain. See, one thing about me is that I take pride in always seeking knowledge. I have a thirst for it, so I get easily irritated by folks who seem content to just get by and often labeled them as “not worthy to be in my circle”. I am not proud of that but I have to tell you were I’ve been for you to understand where I am now. If you notice though, there is a word in there that the Bible says comes before a fall. PRIDE.

I would run into these “hard-to-get-along-with” people. My box was getting pretty full of folks I “Just didn’t like.” I kept running into the same type of people because I was one of them. God had me running into a mirror over and over again. I was always running around with the “fix him…fix her…fix them” mentality when in reality, I should have been saying “Lord, fix me.”

Now, I am not nearly as quick to push folks into the box. As a matter of fact, my box is currently empty. I still have an issue with patience, but I am learning to take things one moment at a time.

Question to consider: What has happened to me recently that I now realize was a test from God? What are the greatest matters God has entrusted to me?

I thought long and hard and I would have to say the loss of my mom.  See, when I loss my grandmother in 1992, I was angry with God.  So angry I had stopped going to church. I wasn't saved then either but I turned away from God.  At that time, in my limited understanding of the Word, I thought if you prayed God would answer your prayers.  What I didn't realize then is that the answers may not be the way you expect them to be. I also know that I have to trust that He knows what He is doing and does not need my help or input.  Instead of praying that God remove me from situations, I now pray that He protects me as I go through them. John 17:15 My prayer is not that you take them out of the world but that you protect them from the evil one.  The Word does not say I won't go through things or have pain, what it says is Isaiah 43:2 When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.    Yes, I am going through some things but I trust God and know that this is for my good and He is with me.   I am telling you, right now God is opening doors I could never open myself.  Things are happening that I know are God breathed.  All I can say is There will be Glory after this!!!!!



Reggie said...

Very nice post.

At times we all go through trials and tribulations; and when we do, we'd best remember some of the points you made in this rather insightful post.

Newy said...

Thanks Reggie. I have to remind myself DAILY. I'm not where I want to be but I am so glad I am not where I used to be.

chele said...

I am finding so much comfort in this post. I know that with God I can handle any thing that comes my way. Our trials are there to teach us something. They are there to make us stronger.

bayoucreole said...

Newy, I look back at my life and to be honest, I thank God I finally stopped being hard-headed and gave him control. I'd be in jail right now if I hadn't.Sometimes, it doesn't SEEM like it but, it is true,
"all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.