Never Forget.

Days like 9/11 remind me how Broken we all are. Everyone has a day like that...a day that your individual life was forever changed. A day that you remember EXACTLY where you were and what you were doing. No it is not a date that everyone else may be able to relate to, but every now and then, there is a date that effects everyone, no matter what race, creed, religion, age, sexual orientation, or...

social standing.

I have my 9/11/2001 memories. It changed the way I viewed America. See, I spent most of my elementary school years oversesas, seeing atrocities that we have never witnessed on American soil. When we were in the rice riots of '79 in Monrovia, Liberia, I thought of the safety of American soil. 9/11/2001, I realized there is no real "safe place" on earth. Psalm 27:5 For in the day of trouble he will keep me safe in his dwelling; he will hide me in the shelter of his tabernacle and set me high upon a rock.

Never Forget.

Self -Exam

I was in Blogland, and one of my favorite bloggers (LadyLee)  had two quotes from a book she is reading...I can honestly say....I get it now. I felt as if God were talking directly to me. Here are the quotes:

You will never respect anyone you are capable of deceiving. (yep you won't lie to someone you respect, you won't respect someone you can lie to)

Right people energize you. Wrong people exhaust you (Getting rid of those that exhaust me.) You can tell if folks exhaust you...Listen, if his/her name comes up in caller ID and you ask yourself 'Am I in the mood for this'...they exhaust you. If you have to be in a certain mindframe to engage in conversation with certain folks - they exhaust you...If you find that certain people ignore your phone calls or seem unavailable ALL THE TIME - YOU exhaust THEM - do some self examination #potmeetkettle Talking to myself as well.

Me...me..me...something about me

A. Age: 42

B. Bed size: King

C. Chore you dislike: laundry

D. Dogs: None

E. Essential start to your day: Coffee

F. Favorite colors: Blue

G. Gold or silver: Silver

H. Height: 5’2”

I. Instruments you play(ed): Keyboard..Long time ago

J. Job title: Management Program Analyst

K. Kids:  2 Sons

L. Live: Atlanta

M. Mom’s name: Lucy

N. Nicknames: Newy, GIPSEE, Necie

O. Overnight hospital stays: A few of them *shudder*

P. Pet peeves: People who are late,  people who lie, people with no follow-thru

Q. Quote from a movie: "You want the truth - YOU CAN'T HANDLE THE TRUTH"

R. Righty or lefty: Righty

S. Siblings: 2 older brother & younger sister

T. Time you wake up: 4:45 am

U. Underwear: yep I got some.

V. Vegetables you don’t like: boiled okra (but love it fried)

W. What makes you run late: Stickler for time.  I try to leave early so this is not me...but if I am late, it's usually because of traffic.  Something I can't control

X. X-rays you’ve had: left ankle, chest (frequent pneumonia)

Y. Yummy food you make: If I don't like it, I don't cook it.

Z. Zoo animal you like: Monkey

Whew!

I have been crazy busy.  I miss you bloggers!  Let's see...here we go...

The Play was a success!!!!!!!!  We have been asked to tour.

I launched a website for my company http://www.gipseeprod.com/

We have DVDs of the play for those who missed it ($15) and T-shirts ($10 - $12 depending on size) to support Broken!  Yes we paid to have it filmed by Smart Aleck Films.  The DVD is PACKED with extras such as "Backstage with the Cast", Pictures from our journey to the stage, and a special of our lead actor Anthony Hall doing a spoken word piece.

We are on IMDB!!!!!!  Yep we are official thanks to our guest star Jermel Howard.  Look up "Broken "  or click here  to see our IMDB page.

I also am on IMDB not only as an actress but as a Writer, director and producer!


Please support our non profit partner, The Fuller Center

So what have you been up to?

Broken Featured on 11Alive Mugs in the Morning

You Abandoned me...

No not really...lol  Newy loves you.  I have been SO busy.  The play is in 4 weeks!!!!!  There have been two articles written about me and the play.  Here is the first one featured in "What's the 411 Atlanta"  Electronically, we are a "Top Pick" for the month.  and here is the print edition interview with me.  (I'm on page 4)

Open publication - Free publishing - More atlanta

I am so excited!!!! God is really opening some doors I KNOW I couldn't open myself.

The second article is written on the site of one of our supported charities :
The Fuller Center

God is GOOD y'all.  He can take what the devil meant for evil and use it for your good!

Broken - Coming June 2, 2012 - New Trailer

Awesome!

Sometimes all you need is one word to describe how good God is to me!  I have had a wonderful week.  Thank you Lord for just being AWESOME...for opening doors I KNOW I could not open on my own.  Everyone have a great weekend.

Broken coming June 2, 2012

It's only a Test - Revisted

This life is full of tests and trials. One thing I have discovered is that it is easy to do the right thing when others are watching, but what do you do when you think no one can see you?

At one time, I was not a friendly person. Seriously. I really didn’t care for many people and once I put you in the “I don’t like him/her” box, well that is where you stayed. Period. The funny thing is I kept running into the same type of people – the type that I put into that box. Let me explain. See, one thing about me is that I take pride in always seeking knowledge. I have a thirst for it, so I get easily irritated by folks who seem content to just get by and often labeled them as “not worthy to be in my circle”. I am not proud of that but I have to tell you were I’ve been for you to understand where I am now. If you notice though, there is a word in there that the Bible says comes before a fall. PRIDE.

I would run into these “hard-to-get-along-with” people. My box was getting pretty full of folks I “Just didn’t like.” I kept running into the same type of people because I was one of them. God had me running into a mirror over and over again. I was always running around with the “fix him…fix her…fix them” mentality when in reality, I should have been saying “Lord, fix me.”

Now, I am not nearly as quick to push folks into the box. As a matter of fact, my box is currently empty. I still have an issue with patience, but I am learning to take things one moment at a time.


Question to consider: What has happened to me recently that I now realize was a test from God? What are the greatest matters God has entrusted to me?

I thought long and hard and I would have to say the loss of my mom.  See, when I loss my grandmother in 1992, I was angry with God.  So angry I had stopped going to church. I wasn't saved then either but I turned away from God.  At that time, in my limited understanding of the Word, I thought if you prayed God would answer your prayers.  What I didn't realize then is that the answers may not be the way you expect them to be. I also know that I have to trust that He knows what He is doing and does not need my help or input.  Instead of praying that God remove me from situations, I now pray that He protects me as I go through them. John 17:15 My prayer is not that you take them out of the world but that you protect them from the evil one.  The Word does not say I won't go through things or have pain, what it says is Isaiah 43:2 When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.    Yes, I am going through some things but I trust God and know that this is for my good and He is with me.   I am telling you, right now God is opening doors I could never open myself.  Things are happening that I know are God breathed.  All I can say is There will be Glory after this!!!!!

MzNewy

Broken coming June 2, 2012

Hope to see you at the play coming this June.

Have a wonderful weekend , Bloggers.

MzNewy

I'm learning

Good morning All. 

Just sitting here thinking....sometimes when things don't work the way we think/pray they should, we think "The devil is trying to distract me".  But sometimes, it's not "the devil trying to distract you" but rather "God trying to protect you."   change your perspective and it can change your reaction.

Have a wonderful and Blessed Tuesday.

MzNewy

Life Update

My baby boy leaves for school in 12 days.  I'm kind of sad.  It has been just us two forever.  When there was no one else, that was my ride or die.  He's growing up.  To me he is always this little boy:



It doesn't matter that he is 6'2" and far from this.  *sigh*  So I am an empty nester in a week.

Rehearsal was phenomenal this weekend.     Trust me, you want to come to this while my tickets are cheap...don't sleep.  LOL   We are running a special :

Tickets are $15 each or 2 for $25.  We also have a group rate 10 for $100.  Get your tickets Now!  Here is the link

Hmmm..What else...Oh yeah singing more, getting my head right....Everyone have a wonderful and Blessed day!

MzNewy

 

Let Go...Let God

Good morning Blogland.
This week I have really been trying to hear from God.  So I have been reading the Word, Listening to different sermons, Meditating on God's Word. 

I was listening to Bishop Jakes, and he said something that I really had to take to heart "Stop trying to change someone's mind about you."  It was a Word I really needed.   You all have a WONDERFUL, Blessed and Favored weekend.   Let Go and Let God.


MzNewy

Broken - The Play

Alright Ya'll!  It's official.  Broken is coming June 2, 2012

I know it is not about me.  I accept there are some things I have had to go through that are painful.  Some days I was balled in the fetal position, not wanting to breathe for even that hurt. When you are flat on your back, all you can do is look up...which puts you in the position to depend on no one but God.  For those of you in the Atlanta Area, I hope to see you at "Broken" 

Three shows : 2pm, 5pm , 8pm
Ferst Center for the Arts
Georgia Tech
349 Ferst Drive NW
 Atlanta Ga 30332

****UPDATE***** on the play and life

Venue - Check...decided to go with Georgia Tech versus 14th street Playhouse for a variety of reasons:

• Parking. Parking is horrible and costly. So folks may be reluctant to come for that reason.
• Rehearsals - I need to have some rehearsal in the venue. They  wanted the same amount of money for rehearsal days as show days, yet I only had limited hours I could use it.
  
• Promotion limitations - I had to sell my tickets through the WA Center only. I was limited in how many comp tickets I gave away. That's bull considering I am paying for the use of the facility
• No lavalier mics nor spotlight at 14th street.

Cast - Check. All those I reached out to for the specific parts I had in mind for them confirmed!
Script - almost check - That's right ya'll I wrote an hour and some change play in about 24 hours! What God has for you is for you!! The words came faster than I could type.
Promotions - One of my cast members has some friends that are graphic artists. They are going to type set my promo cards.
Show date is June 2nd! Watch God move!

I have a brighter outlook on life in general. I am still unplugged. But through being unplugged, I can really hear from God. Thank you Anonymous. Thank you for your prayers. I know they were true and heartfelt because you remained anonymous, not seeking Glory for self but sincerely praying for a fellow believer.

Unplugged

I realize that constant communication is hindering my healing.  So I have deleted the following :

• Facebook ~ the constant updates from others, the reminders of his infidelity, the connection with distant relatives who keep asking "how are you (regarding my mom) is just too much.
• My primary cell that I have had for over 8 years...I send all the calls to vm and have an auto-reply turned on for texts.  Even those who have the privilege of having my "other" cell number are getting auto replies if any.
• Emails...only business emails and the gmail that I have given to a couple of my fellow bloggers.  The rest of them, chucking deuces at them for now.

So while I am unplugged, what am I doing?  Writing a stageplay.  I am pouring my all into this play.  I will give you more info as I find a location, casting is complete and rehearsals have begun.  Blogger is my little secret world the "real life" folks know nothing about .  You all are my refuge right now.

*Update I am going to put it on at the 14th Street Playhouse in Atlanta.  I have my cast in my head.  Going to reach out to them and see who is available. and when.  Paying for it out of pocket so I hope I make a dime.  LOL  If not the therapy is still worth it all.*

Dreams

I have been having this dream about packing and/or unpacking stuff for about 3 months.  I didn't know what it meant so I finally went and looked it up.  When I read this, I was in shock:

Packing
To dream that you are packing signifies big changes ahead for you. You are putting past issues to rest or past relationships behind you. Alternatively, it represents the burdens that you carry.

To dream that you are packing, unpacking and packing and unpacking again represents chaos in your life. You are feeling overwhelmed with the various things you are juggling in your life. You are carrying around too many burdens and need to let go. Consider what unfinished business you have to tend to. Try to resolve these issues so they can finally be put to rest.

I do have a bunch of burdens I am carrying...unresolved daddy issues, inability to accept mom's death, unhappiness in my marriage.  When I looked at my post about time, I realize that the situation was not really about time as it was about control.  Right now, I feel like I have no control over anything in my life. Since I don't have an appetite anyway, I have begun to fast so that I can hear from God.  Fasting and praying....

Matthew 6: 6 But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you. 7 And when you pray, do not keep on babbling like pagans, for they think they will be heard because of their many words. 8 Do not be like them, for your Father knows what you need before you ask him. 9 "This, then, is how you should pray: " 'Our Father in heaven, hallowed be your name, 10 your kingdom come, your will be done on earth as it is in heaven. 11 Give us today our daily bread. 12 Forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors. 13 And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from the evil one. ' 14 For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. 15 But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins. 16 "When you fast, do not look somber as the hypocrites do, for they disfigure their faces to show men they are fasting. I tell you the truth, they have received their reward in full. 17 But when you fast, put oil on your head and wash your face, 18 so that it will not be obvious to men that you are fasting, but only to your Father, who is unseen; and your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you

It is amazing that my unofficial fasting began before Lent.  I have no doubt that I will hear from Heaven.  Be Blessed.

I Look To You

I have pretended long enough. I have had on the "strong face", the Christian "she is outta pain" face, and the "I know I will see her again face". Today I give God my real face, after all I was only fooling myself anyway. God, I am lost. I feel like I have been through so much in the last 12 months. As Whitney says "I'm lost without a cause...I've given it my all....After all that I've been through...who on earth can I turn too?" My strength is gone. God, I am looking for the footprints in the sand because right now I can't go on.

Those I thought I could lean on are only here with ulterior motives. I have no one here for me yet I am always the shoulder for everyone else. Where is my shoulder when I need it????? Lord I am crying out to you.

Today I can't keep on the face anymore. I have not really mourned my mom...trying to be strong but I am not strong...I am just a daughter who misses my mother. My levees are broken and all my walls are down. Lord you know just how much I am going through right now. I am broken, my marriage is in shambles and I am tormented.
I have no choice...I look to You. I can't let the enemy put me in despair to the point that I don't want to be here any longer. I can't eat. I can't sleep. When I do sleep, I just want to never wake up. Lord help me. I need you more than ever now.

Leaving before I hate you

Sometimes, we stay with someone hoping the love will allow us to get it together.  I have learned one valuable lesson though : Leave before you hate them.  Seriously.  When you get to the point where you may despise someone that is not a good thing.  I know me and I know that indifference proceeds despising.  That is where I am.