I value honesty, love, feeling like someone wants me for me, family and most of all I value feeling significant in life. I keep focusing on how I got to this point in life where I have surrounded myself with people who do not value me. I have put people in my circle that I make a priority, yet they make me an option. I am lost. I have such superficial relationships. Folks in my circle who don't
So I logged off FB...and a couple of other changes I made is I stopped initiating contact with folks. Yep I stopped being the one to start conversations, initiate phone calls and send out the "what's up" text messages. See, I reviewed my phone bill for the last month and I realized that most of the calls and messages were outgoing. No one is checking for me. Incoming are mostly return calls.
Self examination is a painful thing. Painful...but necessary. So tonight I have a date with me. I am taking me out to a movie. I am going to enjoy my own company. This incessant need to be connected to folks all the time has to be quenched. I am going back to doing what makes me happy. I am checking for me now.
MzNewy has to fall in love with me again. I let my failed marriage and lack of being in a committed relationship define me. It's weird, but I have lost my identity. I have to find me and fall in love with me...it starts with getting to know me from the inside out.